"te amo" .. (don't means I Love You ?)

ja esperei por ti .. dias e noites seguidas, luares que so sabem o quanto nao dormi, o tempo que esperei por ti no parapeito da minha janela. comunicação por telefone nunca resultou, deitares as minhas expectativas por agua abaixo tambem nao .. queria dizer-te tudo ou entao nada, as vezes queria que morresses .. so pra sentir um dia melhor (nao sei).
nunca consegui entender o teu olhar .. tem tanto por dizer, é como que se dançasse às luz de velas com cheiro a caramelo-canela, merda para ti. deixas-me sem dormir, fico enterrado nos profundos lençois da minha cama a pensar e a cair cada vez mais .. o mundo gira tao rapido e nao consigo arranjar equilibrio para chegar a mim !!
Ja nao entendo a palavra "amo-te", sugas-te todo o significado que havia em mim .. nao ha dicionarios que me ajudem, nem beijos que mo façam sentir. Acabou .. custou tanto a entender, mas hoje vejo que sempre estaremos de passagem e que nunca irei entender o "Amor" como a 1ª vez, obrigado. Amo-te

nsg

se te voltar a ver .. entregas-te vestida ou nua ?

you know ..

the rest is still unwritten ..

just breathe

eu nem sei se é amor ..

I kinda thought that I'd be better off by myself .. I've never seen the word love so personified as I do with you and that is why I just can't let go ? And I would only be fooling myself if I tried to believe there's room for someone else in my heart. There ain't no way I'm getting over you I don't know what I've been trying to prove, I'm hopeless, helpless when it comes to you ..

27 of December

noite dificil, o alcool levou-me a melhor .. estava noutra dimensao, passou-me tudo pela mente .. as mais loucas loucuras ou os piores momentos. rendi-me ao choro, nao me censuro, "um homem chora quando tiver que chorar". estou bem livre de criticas alheias e nao culpo o alcool até porque ja continha esta frustração por demasiado tempo.

Portanto .. here is a little lyric that came to my head in the edge of the situation:

"Of all the things I believe in

I just want to get it over with tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry

Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

Looks like I'm starting all over again

The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I love

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems like I can't live a day without you

Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away

To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time

I want whats yours and I want whats mine

I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

When the stars fall and I lie awake

Your my shooting star"

c'moon ..

- break it off .. é agora ou nunca !

pretty fly (for a white guy)

today i feel like i was about to break .. why to get up of bed when there's nothing new to see or do ? i want to do a brand new thing .. like, i d'know, just act like a crazy asshole or maybe just spin too fast in the life's highway. funk around and joke around, be there and be gone, jump and fly. why even try to lie myself that today is B-day ? cause it never is, so .. i'm gonna put this ass out of bed and act like crazy cause really .. i don't know what kind of feeling is this.
we all have been sorry, we all have been hurt but how we survive is what makes us who we are